I'm Falling In Love With Motherhood All Over Again...
This little boy of mine has no idea, but he is teaching me how to love and how to be loved. He is so thoughtful, so caring and so affectionate. I'll never forget to be thankful for his journey.
He was born with duodenal atresia, a condition in which the first part of the small bowel has not developed properly and is closed and detached. It is a serious and potentially deadly condition that requires immediate corrective surgery. This was detected in the womb and my son was given a high percentage probability of being born with down syndrome.
On February 18, 2008, he was born 6 weeks premature and at birth, he showed no signs of down syndrome. On that day, he was born at 5 pounds and he was rushed immediately to the OR for corrective surgery. He was then admitted and remained in the NICU in an incubator for 5 weeks until I was finally able to bring him home. Those were the 5 hardest weeks of my life. To give birth to my child and not be able to bring him home, and to only have limited time each day to see him at the hospital, praying everyday that he makes progress. It was emotionally challenging for me, but I believed in the power of prayer.
Today, my son is eight years old and has disabilities, (hearing impaired, ADHD, developmental delays). He attends a school for children with special needs/disabilities. He wears a hearing aid, and sees two therapists regularly (one for speech and one for psychiatry). Although he is labelled as "Special Needs" by standard... To me, he is just "SPECIAL"... THAT'S IT! Just "SPECIAL."
I have the greatest respect for parents who have children with disabilities because this role requires extra love and attention and A LOT of patience, especially when you don't have a co-parent. Your life, your schedule and your careers have to revolve around being flexible because you must always be available for your child's needs. You have countless IEP meetings, meetings with the therapists, countless doctors appointments and homework is not always an easy task. Some days can be emotionally challenging. You would never know how challenging this role can be, until you're in this position. But at the end of the day, I wouldn't trade my life for the world! I appreciate my son.
I encourage all of you to commend any parent you know that has a child with disabilities, because it takes a great deal of strength and patience to do what they do. I'm far from the perfect mom and I make a lot of mistakes, but I am trying my best each day to be the mom that my son needs me to be. As long he knows this, then that's all that matters to me. I didn't always have that mindset. But at this point in my life, I do know for certain that being a mom has made me who I am today.
I love my son, Jayden. He is teaching me so many valuable things in this life. Because of him, I am falling in love with motherhood all over again.
I LOVE YOU BABY BOY! You bring color into my life! ❤️